the three gunas


My evenings have been hijacked by houses. Via many channels simultaneously. Tonight it has been the net and Living Channel programmes we My Sky and then watch back to back in fits of insatiable reno-mania.

Thinking back to my blog on Trash and Treasure, I need to limit my Trade Me activity. I am a bit obsessed. Last week I bought a bunch of 70s NZ postcards and last night I scanned and cropped them all. It was the best $13 I have spent on Trade Me thus far.

They say that moving house is one of the most stressful things in life (I can’t remember what the others were — my head is too full of houses). I’m not stressed. At least I don’t think I am. But our stairs are newly-painted and gleaming and I want this chapter closed. I want to be moving in, not moving out. And it’s winter. Also Si and I come at things from wildly different perspectives (me optimistic and persistent and all-in as a puppy, Simon cautious and circumspect, gruffly doubtful as a billygoat). It’s probably a good thing. It’s also quite mentally exhausting furnishing an entire house — and then another one, and another one — in your head and still being no further advanced in the buying cycle for the effort. 

 Today I thought about the three gunas. I want to learn more about them, beyond the little that I know. The three forces that rule us. Sattva, rajas and tamas.

It came about because this afternoon I said to someone you must be able to do this in your sleep. And then I thought how much of life is spent in wakeful sleep? And how much of life is eaten up by agitation?

I have lost the knack of meditation. It has gone completely. Now I don’t even know where to start. There isn’t time. I can’t do it. There is no quiet in my skull, even when I quit my fidgeting and try to find a state where the noise isn’t.

No winter getaway this year. We chose spouting and paint and chimneysweeps and waterblasters instead. But a change is as good as a holiday, as they say. I just hope the change comes soon.


2 Responses to “the three gunas”

  1. 1 Lisa Fraser-Clark

    I can’t meditate, I just fall asleep – that’s when I can make my mind go quiet, which is this side of never).

    The postcards look cool, I know you will do something fabulous and arty with them, damn you. Want to edit my doco instead?

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